of Maxwell Clark
Even
I do not say certain words that bid too wildly at me.
If
supreme candor were not ostracized, I know not what.
The
beginning, as the end, are lies imposed by genetics and their program
of mortality.
If I
simply
must
do
something
of sublime value,
I
might begin by disposing of all nouns and verbs.
But I
am not at all sublime unto myself, and therein is a phrase of
uncertain affect.
The
only lived certainty is that one's own life survives (“I'm not dead
yet”).
How I
chafe at the impositions of my linguistic usage, of my world.
I am
born, not only to die, but to chafe and thrash against death.
No, I
am infinities unto myself---already once long ago pre-originally
inaugurated, and so forth.
The
terror of creation. The confusion of otherwise discreet infinities,
like as if stapled together.
Who
is braver than the persuasive fool? Spiritual war only accretes
intensity the longer it rends us.
Am I
not that one spirit of my world that is? Merciless grace that there
cannot be but others.
The
soul is buried deep in what is, is what is, and to become a spirit it
must fight beyond itself as such.
The
jarring pertubations of political life infect everyone on a regularly
scheduled basis.
Political
life is the most unproductive spasming of the capital-world's
otherwise utility-bound law.
There
is nothing in my head, only a flow of behaviors fixated upon this
text.
The
clash of nothing against itself is already at too late a moment to
adequately describe a cosmogony.
Who
will forgo their own needs, absolutely, for the most infinitesmal
glimmering of joy in another?
The
racing of life towards nothing, as from nothing manifested.
I
refer to myself, but where am I from?
The
main delusion is that a non-delusional state can be attained.
My
world needs me to do this, otherwise I would be otherwise.
The
redemption of creation is not necessary, it is desired.
Does
not desire overwhelm us everywhere in our sense-orientations.
This
that I write, I would its affect take hold immediately first, then
only after as archival media.
Would
that the inherited ruses be torn away, except that the first
inheritance is already a ruse, and it has not gone away.
I
cannot do this for myself. True luxury and comfort are nowhere
available but in teaching and sincerity.
The
master of what is, is what is itself. A higher court than being is
needed for justice, peace, and obedience.